Sunday, June 27, 2010
Not this again
I've been cleaning school classrooms for two years, not enough hours to really make the money to progress in life, and I really couldnt bear a lot more hours than I currently do. I want to quickly think of something to get out into something else and I've held on to Sean saying "you dont have to be a wage Slave". I really could easily end up doing this for years until I'm 30, but I dont want it to come to that.
The trouble is apart from art, I have no skills whatsoever. I'm often tempted to think of using my drawing skill for what other people want to see, but I'm sure I would only end up being unhappy with compromise, I'd rather be at bottom of the ladder blue collar jobs all my life knowing I have full artistic freedom when I get home.
I thought of other artistic things I could do, thinking of unrealistic jobs I'd love to be a porn photographer, but I can only see struggle there because I would want to build elaborate sets for the models to pose on and inject more art into the work than would be viable for a successful photographer in a business that would pressure you to churn out mediocrity. I'd love to do sculptures or stain glass windows, but they might also not like my approach and those materials are very expensive if you are not successful at it.
So have any of you guys got any idea what an artistic person could do without actually having to do art for people or having academic skills with art? I've been thinking for years and nothing has popped into my head. I really just want something to pay me and not be too demanding, so I can focus my life on coming home and doing my own artwork with no outside pressures.
I'd really like to be just a guy who shifts boxes in a stockroom, but those jobs are surprisingly hard to come by. The other hard thing to think of is finding a proffession that will still be alive for the forseeable future, most of the retail jobs I might have done years ago no longer exist. I know I was asking similar things 3 years ago but I'm really stumped now, and to be honest, I dont expect anything.
It's a pain in the ass to not want to draw for other people, sell my art or get in any situation where I have to compromise my art, not to go near supermarkets, most retail or anything that could injure my hands, anything demanding of your hometime, anything that wants you to drive or travel around various places, wear a suit and tie or have academic skills.
Is it too much to ask to just to want to shift boxes?