Wednesday, September 03, 2008
-From sketchbook.Click to enlarge.
I've been doing a lot of really loose brush and ink drawings lately while trying to work on larger, more concerted efforts at the same time. Problem is, I really like the sketchier stuff a lot more, both in terms of finished product as well as enjoying the process.Drawing without preparation kind of goes against my grain in a way; I tend to appreciate in art a certain kind of cleanliness of approach.Not the look of it, but just the sense that it's directed, that you can discern clear intent.
The problem is that when I attempt that kind of thing I become mired in strategic thinking.I bounce so many possibilities around in my head that I basically loose steam.It's no longer about enjoying the process of drawing or painting or whatever, but instead it's about trying to pin down something really elusive. Like trying to catch a phantom with a bear trap or something.
I struggle against it all the time. Comics are still my favorite art form, probably. They're strategic by nature. They even involve grids, usually. I think like a lot of people, I really want to create things like the things I most enjoy, but at this point I sort of think it's just not in the cards. I can write them. I've written out full scripts that I think are pretty good, but when it comes to executing them, I end up with lifeless, dull illustrations.
I think my goal at this point is just to let things go. I hate the word, but an organic or wholistic approach to art and drawing, where it's woven into my daily life and just sort of happens is something to shoot for. Now I have to nail down how to do that.
It never ends...